I am weak.
I cried in front of her when she said “I feel like we are just friends”
I fell so hard, deep down the abyss of my tears like a little helpless boy.
I never cried; I only did when I was a kid.
I have been hurt so much before from people, windscreen wipers, mosquitos and losing a loved one but I never shed a tear.
But when she unloved me I just broke down in a sea of tears.
My mind keeps nagging my brain with all the “whys” in the world and I have developed an image that I didn’t treat her the way I should have.
In short, I f#%^*+ up.
Why do I keep f#%^*+ up many times!
Why does the world revolve around only me in the opposite direction!
I will never understand the consequences of my actions because sometimes life just toys me around.
I have been through the toughest mental and physical challenges my self could endure but I simply couldn’t love a woman the way she should be loved.
Wasn’t I supposed not to cry in front of her? Did she think I am weak?
If I don’t cry in front of her, whom can I cry in front of?
Yes I think I am weak, as weak as bone marrow.
I am weak for loving a woman from and with all my heart.
I am weak for expressing to a woman that she meant the world to me.
I am weak cause I trusted her blindly.
I am weak because I made love to her faithfully.
My name is sherif and I am weak.