Afraid of Falling in Love

I won’t deny that I’m afraid of falling in love. I am afraid of any kind of falling cause I don’t know whether I could get up once again. It sounds rational for me to avoid any kind of further interaction as I assume, things will be just fallen apart, leaving me into pieces spreading on the floor.

Keeping the love in the safe distance is one of my best ability. Showing affection in the most indirect manner, hoping things would be change, a mental break-down or something, where I could be a crazy person fueled with momentarily courage. To speak up, the messy feelings I have to the one I loved.

I won’t deny that I’m afraid of falling in love. As I know how it will shatter us fall apart.