Argument for switching from Self Advocacy mindset to developing processes of Self Determination, Agency & Authenticity
Some illustrations of frustrating and way to common interactions in my life:
It seems that in our society, it’s so common to hear encouraging messages, but how come when I accept those invitations, I get criticisms, demands, or banishment?
Why is the void so threatening? I theorize it’s because it’s fear of ego annihilation. My early experiences falling into the void, was terrifying free falling. But with time, I recognized that I mis-interpreted that feeling, it’s falling, but there’s no bottom. So it’s a free floating, groundless ground sensation. It feels very vast and isolating, but it’s also feels infinitely free and pure ease.
Why is it so dangerous to be human and share from that place? When did this happen in our modern society? It seems that being too human is equated with automatic unworthiness and instant judgment.
Is a core issue with Autistic people, that they simply too human?
Let’s argue for neurodiversity with some neuroscience. It’s not about Autistic behaviors, maybe their brains are wired quite differently?
Temple Grandin’s DTI brain scan, shows she has 10x wiring for visual in contrast to 0.1x wiring for auditory naming.
I have aphantasia, meaning that my internal imagery is blind. I have no internal mind’s eye. Can’t visualize squat. Also my verbal & auditory thinking seems to also lack, maybe 40–50% of normal levels.
However I have very high spatial and kinesthesia thinking and brain capacity. It also seems to be related to wayfinding, environmental awareness, and positional thinking. I also have high pattern thinking.
It feels more natural for me to come from my raw humanity and hang out with grief and collapse. Maybe it’s because I also have some SDAM (Severely Deficient Autobiographical Memory)?? I experience of life from 3rd person, as a default.
Now onto Autism and broad traits. Let’s explore the spectrum.
I suspect that with my lack of internal visual imagery in addition to limited verbal/auditory thinking. Makes communication a core impairment for me, talking spatially feels like trying to put 3D experience into 2D words & narrative.
However I think my social interaction intelligence could be off the charts. I am very fast and intuitive to pay attention to social and cultural norms along with the vast unspoken rules and common deception & manipulative mechanisms out there.
But it’s an uneven ability, balanced by my poor communication range and tone, along with speed of coming up with and keeping up with normal pace of verbal & story exchange.
I find that autistic specialists tend to focus too much on externals and belonging masked as fitting into social norms.
As an alternative approach, I will argue that meeting core developmental needs of the trio below is more important than just social conformity.
Beingness & Autonomy are very important and personal to me. Something that is way too often attacked, ignored, and dismissed in our society today. Why is there so much dehumanization everywhere?
I sense that modern education and current social norm of intellectualized anesthetized narrow range form of communication is a big contributor. The standardization of education process along with western Academia norms, has a very dehumanizing influence.
Increasing focus on STEM and rote memory lecture style teaching, is a very narrow range of communication and learning. This form of education might be sterilizing and foreign to neurodiverse brains, it lacks the sensory richness, variety, engagement, creativity and active interaction with the student & teachers.
Education has possibly become an assembly line style mechanism, designed for an earlier era of manufacturing based economy. As this gets antiquated and the limitations are showing, the government solutions tend to be throw more money at it, and more administration.
There are many social and systemic paradigms that are inherently unfriendly to neurodiversity. Another aspect is an excess focus on behavior control with mental illness. There are still many government agencies labelled as behavioral health, with their paradigm of mass behavioral control or influence.
Paradigms in psychotherapy play a big influence. Diagnosis and labels very easy tend to pathologize and objectify that person into simply behavioral control and training.
Society might need a wake up call to break these systemic paradigms, otherwise most everyone continues following social norms, oblivious to the inherent dehumanizing effects.
Another contributor is that the norm our society is to be emotion phobic.
Acceptance, literacy, and mastery of emotions might be a key to integrating a whole self, person and complete sense of being. Maybe we need an approach that’s closer to nurturing and gradual development, instead of shaping minds through pre-scriptions of behavior?
Beingness is sort of like the ground of your being, having that as a foundation, connects you to belonging as a part of nature and a grand wholeness.
It’s a bit more work at first, but when one recognizes that we’re in this together, learning to better collaborate with each other. It can become more of a win-win situation.
Back to paradigm busting, the Western view of separate individual is a norm that is incomplete and inadequate for neurodiversity or diversity in general.
Back to meta perspective, this is from top down view grand map I drew out from my spatial thinking.
Get the worlds inside the yellow center circle in order, then start working on outer green circle to develop and refine into an active, engaged and valuable member of society & community. The path of virtue and humanity training.
Side view of different dimensions/realms of being that are nested and interconnected with each other.
I like my grand meta maps, but others seem to prefer long lists of things to work on. Here are some that I have pulled from.
From attachment theory, I like Gordon Neufeld’s research and models:
A few more related chart references:
Let’s close going back to the void, or the hole in the center of the donut. Turn it into 3D and a flow that’s universal, the torus shape. A flow, that is essential part of magnetic poles.
Maybe self determination is a path worth pursing, as it allows realization of balance between realms, opposites, worlds, and it’s just an awesome way of being and living?
Going back to core need of BEINGNESS, maybe that’s what is missing and where people need to start. I wonder if Buddhist mental noting or labeling practice might come to Autistics easier, due to that common intense focus/special interest/obsession capacity???