Voice of my heart…!!!

Deep Solanki
Sep 9, 2018 · 3 min read

My heart gets hurt,

don’t go away,

My mind gets blind

don’t go away…!!!

Whenever I see you, I could not comprehend my feeling actually. My mind stops thinking, heart starts feeling. The feeling which we both experienced, I got because of you, the feeling felt in a paradise of spiritual lovers. Oh honey what should I tell you, and what not. Now I am surprised because before meeting you I could not write anything, now I have written many books, and everyone’s title starts from your name. I wanted to stop thinking about you, but failed, I tried to forget you but your picture, your beauty, your face, floated into my eyes, and made me remember your cute smile, then again I became your and started thinking about you. You are in my mind, heart,and my every breathe inhale your name. I remember the first day, when you were totally strange, but very quickly you dived into my heart, and made my very being beautiful and outstanding, and made me worth loving.

Whenever, you were away from me physically, I always heard your feet’s sound moving towards me, Whenever you were silent, I always understood your silences. Everything and every particle on this face of earth brought your messages. Air was a messenger too, which always carried your love letters, which alerted me that you were coming. You were my soul, and I was your body, you lived inside me but you left me just like the same as soul leaves multiple bodies. If you leave me, if you destroy me, if you make me unhappy, if you make me unhealthy, if you make me wanderer , if you make me bewildered, if you break me, if you tear me into pieces, if you pull me out of my home, if you insult me at everyone’s face, even then I will not utter a single word just silence will be reaction. Instead, I will love you, make you feel happy, praise your beauty, speak of you, think of you, miss you, kiss your drawings, talk to your paintings, and I will find you, even you are in the darkest area of the universe , and will find you always present in my heart. I remember the day my sweetheart, when you spoke to me of love, hate, heart, soul, break up, relations, God, and many other topics, that we studied but all in silence. Do you remember! you always said to me, “Hey! honey, please speak, why are you so silent? You always do not speak anything, why Honey?” Now listen the reason, I always do not speak because I used to speak a language which only true lovers can understand that is of Silence.

My beloved! I read the novel fifteen times but again I have started the novel that you gifted me when we met first time near the God’s home, where we promised in a filmy manner that we will never leave each other, we are born for each other, and we will live together and die together. When I opened the book, I found a flower but it was broken , it’s color was faded away like me. I could not erase the memory, the moments that I spent with you, the love we made, the ride to a lonely place. These all were immutable moments, and unforgettable. Do you know? when you go away from me, my heart shouts aloud, and only utters your name, When you leave me, I feel as if I am lost, wondered and I feel, I am being exiled from this universe and placed in a lonely place. My heart cries, but lips do not utter, my heart is broken but my outside structure does not reveal it. Voice of my heart still cares you, loves you, remembers you and only wants you and dreams you always. But when will you com back. I am still waiting in a vast desert of deserted lovers…!!!

Deep Solanki

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Teach me I am nothing…wanderer, seeker of love and God, and Student of everyone and everything…deep.ibasukkur@gmail.com

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