B e n
B e n
Aug 24, 2017 · 1 min read

I’m awake at 3 am while everyone is asleep, my body is lying in my bed but my mind is far somewhere else. I see nothing but the light coming from the windows as the wind blows the curtains back and forth, the silence of the night echoes thru my ears. All I can hear is my own heart beating, I can hear it breaking into million pieces. Now I know why 3 am is called the devil’s hour, for the emptiness of this hour conjures the scariest thoughts. Thoughts inside my mind I’ve kept for so long because it can hurt me. Thoughts like how alone I am in this empty moment, and how alone I am in this life. The horrors of being alone and awake terrifies me, not because of ghost or creatures of the night, it is because of the living. Seven billion people in this world and at this moment I am alone. Alone until my eyes gives in to the temptation of falling asleep just like the rest of the 7 billion people in this world.

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