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I don’t remember the exact moment I lost who I was supposed to be

I don’t remember when I gave up the dream for my future

where I stand tall, confident and intimidating to the faint-of-heart

I don’t remember if I was ever so courageous

I don’t remember why I thought I was no longer worthy of

riches, power and success.

I don’t remember why I stopped believing in myself

I don’t remember knowing if she would ever come back

gleaming her brilliant smile, care-free heart

and golden brown skin

I don’t remember why I spent so much time crying

hurting over what failed me

I knew blessings don’t always mean that something is added

but also that sometimes things could be taken

I don’t remember why I was so angry for so long

so much time spent in a dark cold place

I don’t remember when I stopped smiling

I don’t remember when my heart hardened

I don’t remember why I cared if you rejected my love

or why I cared that I would be alone

It was in my loneliness that I found

and remembered how fiercely I love

how passionately I embrace

how radically I wanted to live

I don’t remember why I gave him the time of day

I don’t remember why I allowed

the goals and ulterior motives of others to manipulate

my planner and derail my path

I don’t remember when my innocence for life was lost

I don’t remember if it was taken or if I handed it over

fearful of being different from the others

I don’t remember when I tore away my once joyful heart

and replaced it with sadness and despair

I don’t remember a lot of things that I experienced in this life

but I remember today when I looked in the accountability mirror

She looked back at me with love in her eyes,

and passion burning deep she said,

Now that you remember who you are

let’s take this shit by storm!

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