I can relate to your anger, my wife died in 2008 and I feel at times like you.
Thorsten Bredberg

I do appreciate you taking the time to read and comment and of course I know. I just had a moment. Getting my feelings down on “paper” helps me a lot sometimes. In this case my rage was boiling. Not sure which is more self destructive the anger or the sorrow. One thing I am certain of they both suck.