(Mis)Trust

I believe, in varying degrees, we all have trust issues. Due to our own brokenness and bad experiences, it’s hard for us to trust [easily], and honestly, there are also times when it’s hard to trust God in way(s) He leads and works because they could get incomprehensible and unnoticeable by human senses. Juxtaposing that with the brokenness of humanity and minds that have been (re-)wired by the pattern of world, it could get really frustrating and confusing.

But I have learned that trust, like faith, has uncertainty in it, and when there is uncertainty there is risk involved — but we, humans, due to our brokenness, have an inclination to avoid it. We always want utter control and black-and-white certainty so we trust each other less and sometimes, more than we dare to admit, even God. And when we trust God less we act on our own understating and terms; and when we trust each other less, the body would not function harmoniously and effectively.

Trusting God

“He works in ways we cannot see”, as the song goes, but God working mysteriously can leave us frustrated, discouraged or even lost sometimes. I think this happens when God’s work did not turn out the way we wanted or expected it to be, or when we do not sense any progress or success in our respective ministries. What I have learned (and still learning to practice) is that trusting God means letting my plans and standards submit to God’s and not the other way around — of me and mine being sort of pliable: always willing and ready to be (re)molded by His good hands. I know it sounds trite, but that does not make it less of a truth , and it’s definitely easier said than done for it involves self-analysis in light of Truth and utter humility.

Trusting People

Some would say, “Trust God and not men”, but I would say, “Trust God and trust men”. It does not mean to trust mindlessly though, but to trust Christ-likely. It seems only reasonable whether to trust people based on their track records, but such should not be the case when reaching out, ministering or disciple-ing people. We should see them the way Jesus sees them in the Scriptures. We should see and accept them not merely in their present broken state but in their future transformed life in Christ Jesus: redeemed and loved by God. I believe if we view people in this light we would be less judgmental and more emphatic and compassionate instead, which are essential components in establishing authentic relationships. Just look at how Jesus sees people in the Scriptures; he acknowledged their broken past and present state yet he did not dwell on it, but rather passed through it and sees their future as redeemed, loved, children of God. Jut look at his encounters with the prostitute, with the Samaritan woman, with the thief on the cross, with his disciples — recall his final prayer on the cross, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing”. Trusting a person in this way does not mean condoning his wrong doings, but trusting him includes teaching, admonishing and building each other up — not abandoning them when their flaws were revealed or had their short-comings.

I am where I am today (which is better than I was before) not because of my skills and accomplishments but because of God’s grace. And part of that grace, I believe, manifests and flows through the people who unceasingly demonstrate their love for me and choose to trust me despite of my past, flaws and short-comings. And what makes it more wonderful is once you have experienced such love, such kindness, such trust, the only natural thing to do is to share that with others — and I desire to do likewise for the rest of my life.