This is a random writing about the term “ass whole”. I did not go as hard as i very well could have from a details or writing perspective (time), but this thought needs to put into the world soo here we go…

Good Morning, Love Life not just your own. I love really hard, i had to learn how to control it. Most people don’t love at all.

Sidenote: Listen to Controlla by Drake with somebody special and get your relationship in order. That's my shit, i digress.

The phrase "You’re an asswhole" has become code words for me and people like me in certain regards that at the moment you’re being too logical about a situation where sensitivities or emotions are attached that may very well have needed to be shaken BUT you might not be ready for them to be shook that way or by that individual.

I closed off my FB status updates to only “my friends” for a while in hopes of cleaning out my social memoirs on the place where i started getting "too personal for YOU on the internet", because technically put the internet is open season, especially to me and my woes (word to Drake for bringing popularity to another common word in Hip Hop culture). Most of my real friends have like the best hearts and intentions in the world but some people, usually large to medium sized opposition groups not desiring or informed on enough to confront the real issues directly for whatever reason, think most of us are at times kind of mean, too blunt, or ass whole-ish unless they get to be our close friend, then ur somebody else’s blunt honest ass whole friend. But what happens when you mix that with one of your most intelligent friends?

I dont steer away from being called the term ass whole as much anymore (its situational) and Im a grown ass man now who wasn’t trained to just roll over, the people I love the most know that and I’ve learned they always have and will love me in spite of and were OK with it because i learned and grew a lot in part because of it, and most of them raised me like this. Im starting to learn that being an ass whole was one of the most likely ways a lot of people from places like mine who were my peers and family memebers "get it", real tough love not that fake pretend shit, that give everybody a medal shit GTFOH (get the fuck outta here, im unrelenting with the venacular). I’ve been blessed to meet and know people who are from all over the world and all different walks of life now and sometimes they "get it" different less painful ways but that doesn’t mean I’m giving up. I tried the loving caring super sentimental route and unless you’re rich and resourceful enough to personally change everyone else’s personal situation from certain walks of life it doesn’t always work as well. I KNOW Im not alone i have plenty of friends wearing the same pendant proudly daily, i wonder if they switched sides on me lol, just saying all this because I’m not just going to be as humble as the little boy Dennis was about a lot more as I grow and develop more as a older young man, about things I feel I have an understanding and a sense of entitlement and calling to do (im not entitled to shit except the right amount of respek on my name but i aint done shit yet, u gotta earn that), even if it does require a few bent rules, a little (modest) bold rebellion, n trailblazing and engineering a path that i haven’t seen comfortably treched before from somewhere like where Im from.