<Senses>

In my life I have had an ongoing sense/sensitivity that was not always recognizable but ever present. This sense has not always been a positive or pleasurable one to carry. It is somewhat difficult to explain in words because of it’s ethereal existence. When I was younger, people generally asked why I seemed to be so serious at most times. I really didn't have a good answer to that except an “I don't know”. As I grew older and became more aware of it’s place in my life, it’s face has become more clear and now has allowed me to make better choices as to the people I choose to be and spend time with. I have told some women close in my life that “I can feel you better than hear or see you”. This didn't play out well, and got either blank stares or passed off as some crazy made up ploy . I know that people in general won’t or don’t believe this at all. I rarely seek many friendships, just a few good ones. Whether they be close friends or life partners. In other words, this innate sense has helped as a guide and model in my life. But, it does not pertain to being with groups of people, or if it does, that might reflect my serious nature due to the negativity of so many around me. Unfortunately, my view is many people go around with a negative attitude and perception of their lives.

I'm sure there are many others that share this type of sensitivity of which I'm referring too. It is something that allows me to feel another person’s energy, and goes much deeper than any words or actions ever could. They don’t need to say anything at all; all people have and emit their own energy and aura. This has become so obvious to me. Like a sponge, I absorb my direct and immediate environment either good or bad. This does invite the negative nature of some people, which after a time can be exhausting to me. When this occurs, a red flag is immediate and apparent. I am specifically speaking about spending time with another person before reaching this check point. It is not instantaneous. Then, I either consent to their friendship or push/pull away. Therefore my choices are very particular due to this sensibility. I have learned to accept this as a blessing and curse, but, have also become very comfortable with it as well…………………….