This is just really well done. Also, imagine all of this inequality mindset while being Black in America, where the running narrative is that only a few will make it —correction: only a few SHOULD make it. You had the (admittedly dubious) benefit of being looked at as that “model minority,” which means that at the very least people around you didn’t look at you skeptically, assuming you’d fail and/or that you got into college through affirmative action rather than intelligence, an attitude Black people have to deal with on a daily basis. Four hundred years of racism have left an inequality mindset that’s just really hard to imagine and even tougher to navigate. Your narrative is illuminating; looking forward to Part II.