I understand completely, Pam. My man is still impatient with any of the ongoing procedures. Boy, I could write some stories! He would not like them so I do not write about the frustration and the constant fear about "next time". We do truly live in the moment now because I am still afraid, almost 3 years later.

Anyway, write to me anytime. I left you my email and I am back on Medium now. I do not share a lot of details in comments but I am here if you need to vent. Sending lots more prayers and hugs!