I am so done

Today I failed an electricity test.

I was sick and during 4 days before the test I missed school.

Instead of focusing on my recovery I was thinking about the hours I missed, the little things that the teacher would say that my mates will forget to tell me, the upcoming courses, etc.

It just added me a lot more headaches so I felt asleep. I litteraly slept for 3 days and when I came back to school this morning, I was fed up

I knew how to solve that equation but was too stressed to do so.

I have competences but I am obliged to have a good grade to confirm it. Why?

Does the fact that I can count look better with a 20/20 on a paper ?

What if I didn’t go to school?

What if I refused to do those stupid standardized tests?

Does it mean that I am not competent? NO

Why do I have to sit in front of a board for 8 hours while my legs and back hurt ?

Why do I have to feel like a failure because of a number on a paper they forced my to fill?

Okay let’s say that I have the freedom to give back a blank paper. The traumatism is double ! The silent paper will tell you that yes you have courage to do that man but this is not a «one man fight», nice try however. Then the teacher will do a brilliant monologue about your immaturity or disrespect in front of the class before giving a 20/20 to the «nerd» who «succesfully filled the paper» and probably forgot the lesson two days after.

Nice school ! Nice !

Ps : This is written by someone usually identified as the «nerd». Just sayin…