You are on your own, kid
The twenties are sugarcoated everywhere, but living through them is a bitter truth. The bitterness might either get into you or make you a lot stronger than you thought you were.
Something about having to become an adult while wanting to make the inner child happy sucks. Being an adult often means taking on the responsibilities of your family, making tough decisions that would dictate your life, and prioritizing practicality over playfulness. While doing all of these, it feels like we’re constantly suppressing the inner child within us. The weight of expectations and societal norms can burden the existing identity crisis.
The twenties, the age of confusion. The age of trying to figure it all out. The age of trying to be better than the people living an average life. The age of running around in a loophole. The age of having very little free time while chasing dreams that seem both distant and within reach. The age of grappling with uncertainty and making choices that might shape the future. The age of juggling our expectations and societal pressure. The age of questioning one’s purpose and searching for meaning in every experience we take. The era of outgrowing individuals that were believed to last for an eternity. The age of making mistakes and embracing the lessons they bring. The age of discovering passions and pursuing them with relentless determination. The age of building a foundation for the years to come, while still yearning for the carefree days of childhood. The age of realizing that life is a beautiful mess and that it’s okay to not have all the answers. The age of embracing the journey and trusting that everything will fall into place, even if it takes time. The age of the twenties, where confusion and growth intertwine, and where the seeds of a remarkable future are sown.
Your only three friends including your lover are going to be busy. It will just be you, alone, and sometimes god guiding you.
You find yourself standing at the crossroads of solitude, with the realization sinking in that your only companions will be your thoughts. And it is only getting worse if you’re caught up in rumination, where every thought suffocates you even more and wraps you in an anxious trap. “This is terrible”, you’ll keep repeating in your head because no one except you will understand your dreams, or push you to go get the bag. You’ll be tempted to give up, to let go of those dreams that seem impossible. Doubt will creep in, imposter syndrome will say ‘hello’ now and then, whispering in your ear that you’re wasting your time and your potential isn’t enough. But deep down, you know that this is just a test of your determination and perseverance. So you’ll wipe away those tears of frustration and stand tall, ready to face the challenges ahead. Because you understand that greatness is not achieved overnight; it takes relentless effort and unwavering belief. And although no one else may comprehend the fire burning within you, you’ll refuse to let their lack of understanding extinguish your flame.
Alone, you wander through the streets, chasing the dream only you know about or just addressing the food you’re craving. You write, paint, create, and express yourself in ways you never thought were possible. Mastering being alone but not feeling lonely will change the dynamics of how your twenties will look like. Making peace with the fact that only you will be there for yourself every time you need someone will change a lot. You notice the subtle beauty in the simplest of things. These moments become your companions, filling your heart with a sense of fulfillment. You start to understand the dreams planted in your heart, that had been buried beneath the weight of everyday life.
Sometimes, in the stillness of the night, you find peace in conversations with the divine. You pour out all your bottled hopes, fears, and doubts, seeking reassurance. And in those moments, you feel a presence, a gentle hand guiding you forward, reminding you that you are never truly alone.
As time goes on, you realize that this period of solitude has become a gift. It has allowed you to reconnect with yourself, to rediscover your strengths and weaknesses, and to appreciate the beauty of your own company.
Life can be tough, and there will be times when you feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, especially in your twenties. Being on your own might suck but embrace the independence that comes with being on your own. Take risks, make mistakes, and have fun on your own, without having to wait for someone to join you, without waiting for your schedule to align with a friend.
Sure, there will be setbacks and obstacles along the way. Life has a funny way of throwing curveballs when you least expect them. But don’t let that discourage you, shake you, and break you. Instead, take those challenges as opportunities working in your favor. Above all, believe in yourself. Trust that you have what it takes to win in this journey called life. There is a world of possibilities waiting for you out there. You are on your own kid, but you’ll conquer and create the life you’ve always dreamed of.
