I have FAILED

Now it’s time to do it again.

Photo by Julian Böck on Unsplash
Confession time: I screwed up.

I wanted to do it all. I wanted to go wide and deep. And of course I ended up doing neither.

It was predictable, but then again most things are in hindsight. And I have to admit the entire thing resulted in a fairly spectacular — if inner — crash for me. Mentally.

The last two days I struggled to write the blog. I’m two posts behind, as of right now. I did work on Between the Lights a lot, but it became increasingly clear that taking on that, and researching Awakening at the same time just isn’t going to work. Not to mention writing two things at once during NaNoWriMo.

I’ve neglected social media because — contrary to my aim — I got overwhelmed with the width of what I was trying to accomplish, and discouraged by the lack of depth that resulted from being spread thing.

And so yesterday evening I’ve hit the reset button.

I’ve spent most of today outlining my own life and work: what needs to be done, what’s essential and what can be postponed for the time being.

  1. the blog: I’m still doing the blog. There’ll be changes, however, that I feel would make it easier on my part. Instead of trying to come up with topics, I’ll put the emphasis on documenting, bringing it closer to a public daily journal.

    There’ll be still, I hope, valuable content in these blog posts. After all, the stuff that interests me and what I discover as I’m working can be enlightening to many others. Hopefully, anyway.

    It’s just the “packaging” that’ll receive a certain amount of re-styling.
  2. social, meaning Twitter and Snapchat: as much as I’d like to create content and engage with y’all on other platforms, at this point I think it’s best to focus on two at the most.

    While Snapchat will feed into the daily blog and the audio layer I’ll talk about in a minute, it’s still the kind of focus I envisioned for my social presence.

    I’ll still distribute the content onto other platforms, but unless engaged, I’ll not dedicate effort into them for the time being.
  3. Audio: this is a marriage of both passion and practicality. I do believe audio is about to become real big, maybe overtly maybe not, and I want to be there when it does. It offer a less oversaturated and competitive environment for a creator, such as myself, who still experiments a lot.

    I also enjoy audio tremendously. I’ve found a new way, instead of Spreaker, to deliver ‘live’ content; that is: a dynamic stream of audio thoughts, sometimes in sync with Snapchat, sometimes outside of it, and engage with you all.

    I’ll take the best of those bits of content and compile them together in a daily podcast; somewhat a companion to the blog, but not an extension or translation of it.

These three will be the focus of my public activity. I have a lot of things brewing privately, the main one of course being Between the Lights. As of now I estimate I can finish the screenplay version of it before November, and write it through NaNoWriMo.

Of course, all this is subject to change. But I feel fairly confident about my ability to handle this amount of work on a consistent basis.

I don’t want to over-promise and under-deliver.

I’m just going to take on a handful of things, but go all in on those.

Wish me luck, and see you on the other side. 😉


Write. Document. Repeat.

As detailed above, my current workflow is under construction. But watch this space on upcoming posts about the stuff that’s coming your way. ☺️