A lot of this is how I imagine myself sounding if I ever manage to succeed at really anything. “Uhhh, someone called me.” Catching an audience at the right time from a new and growing site got me more attention in a few months than in 11 years. Even the idea that I had more to offer to anyone besides myself in writing was foreign to me until followers showed up. For me, the need to write overwhelmingly supersedes the fallout from it.
I wish you well on your book and am glad I get to catch your words.