Disappointment
Poem for my twin flame runner, or whatever this is
Here I go again, getting my hopes up
And there you go again,
A shining bright light
Of absence
Disappointed
As I danced through the night
with friends by my side
in alcohol-induced fairy tales
Sadness held a steady grip
On my inner core
Cause you weren’t there
You
Weren’t
There
What did I expect?
Why did I expect you to be?
Disillusion is the suit I wear
When nobody is looking
As I smiled and laughed
Hugged and talked and swayed
There was a shadow inside me
Cast by the barrier between us
Growing steadily as you escape
My reality
I need to understand
That you are not the light inside me
I am my own illumination
And the shadow is
the feeling of my own
Inadequacy
The morning sun
Warms my cheek
I suppose I should let it melt my
Disappointment
I suppose I should replace it with
Acceptance
Cause you weren’t there
And you aren’t here
Anymore
