Essence, not worthiness…
I’ve been pondering the idea of worth for the last week or so, thinking there must be a deeper place behind the idea of worth, a deeper place below “deserving effort, attention, or respect,” — the definition I found in the dictionary.
I own one of those fancy “adult” coloring books. I stumbled across this book at my local indie bookstore while looking for a 2017 datebook. Each page is full of stunning graphics and one word. One simple word. One simply stellar word. Words that reveal all of the beautiful, verdant, serendipitous elements of humanness. I was captivated by the supernova of essays that began forming in my thoughts as I read each word. I thumbed through my beautiful coloring book looking for the page where I would find worth. Of all the beautiful words in this book, worth is not included. Alas, I did find essence.
Essence. Oh yes, that is exactly the word that resonates with me as I explore the idea of worthiness. Digging down to the bottom of worth to find the place where there is no sense of falseness, no lies left, and simply down to the essence of ourselves. Worth… doesn’t it just scream judgment? Are you or are you not… worthy? Worth is a human-created concept that serves only to shake our own innate knowing. If we are quite still for a moment… if we drop our breath into our bellies… if we pull our focus deep into our hearts and begin to expand… there it is… our truest essence. Our connection.
The definition of essence is “intrinsic nature or indispensable quality of something” (or someone, I add). Quintessence, soul, spirit, nature… the very nature of something or someone, or as the Unitarian Universalists promote: the inherent worth and dignity of each and every person. This is it… this is where we find our commonality, and our beautiful, beautiful, differences; peeling away the layers of untruths, an active discovery of ourselves. It is the very nature and truth of who we are. It is who we were before the world began dumping life on top of us, before trauma and wounds began to chip away our own definition of self… our perception.
One of the many life changing pieces of magic I have read throughout my life includes the poem “Our Deepest Fear” from Marianne Williamson’s A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”,
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
This poem puts it all out there in plain English. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” Can you imagine our world right now in 2017, a planet full of people who believed this to be true of themselves? How would we wake up tomorrow? What would we shift? How bold and pure could we love one another?
I am a particle of the divine. A handful of ocean is no less ocean just because it rests in my hand… as I am to the universe. Whatever the divine… so am I. Stardust. Magic. Of the heavens. As are you.
The moment we begin to see others as we wish to seen, we will co-create peace. We will be peace, and we will uncover the most precious of all gifts… our innate, divine, essence. Do not question your worth… discover your indispensable essence.