Jenna, You’ve been through alot, no doubt. Please don’t give up. You are at a low point right now but the spirit inside of you is growing stronger than ever. She will reappear soon. Simplify, stay focused on the things that you need to do for you right now. This is not selfish this is “self care”. It is necessary especially at times like these. Fresh air, good food, sleep. Quite time for your mind. Your priorities will come back into focus and your mind will become clear and you will feel strong again soon. I know this. I have been where you are. LOVE to you!! Thinking of you!! Praying for you!!! Sending my energy to you.