Reflecting on the why, handed the ultimate excuse. pt4
This week I’ve given you a glimpse into this girl’s fat girl story. It got me thinking and after reading some other posts this week I starting looking at the why it went wrong.

Then I remembered what it was that started this last spiral back to the beginning. It was in early 2016 when the pressure of reaching goal weight for the awards had subsided. I had some pain in my right knee, I’d taken salsa as part of my get fit routine and I thought perhaps I was damaging myself. I had for a long time suffered with Rice Krispie knees. By which, I mean my knees sound like a bowl of Rice Krispies when I straighten them from a bent position.
I thought it was an age thing it had been happening for so long it was just part of me. However, a friend convinced me I needed to get it checked out. The doctor sent me for an X-ray, the results shocked me.
He told me, you have early onset arthritis in your knee.
I couldn’t believe it I assumed the same was true of both knees though I only told him one hurt which was the truth. However, they both make that noise. So, there I was 34 years old diagnosed with early onset arthritis. Now what?
The doctor told me the only thing I could do was strengthen the muscles around the knee to help protect it. I couldn’t do any high impact exercise though, no running, no cycling up hills as that would be too much pressure.
I was gutted. I continued dancing but the weight loss this had afforded me in the beginning stopped. The amount I was doing started to lessen as me and my new man found other things to do together. We still went to classes regularly but over the last 18months the weekend parties have decreased. So decrease in activity on top of many more dinners out didn’t help with the creeping up of the weight.
A number of people suggested I take up running again as I’d really enjoyed it before but this was now out of the question and I had the ultimate excuse the doctor said I can’t I thought about going back to the gym but the truth is my desire was not as great as my excuses. Well what would be the point I couldn’t do this or that because I’d damage my fragile knees. So I did nothing. Time to stop the excuses.
This week I’ve been working on creating a new habit. Walking, low impact, cardio and a great opportunity to get out side and spend time with my man. We talk while we walk, which means less of that coming home sitting in front of the computer or tv and ignoring one another. Not that we ignored each other, but the conversation doesn’t get a chance to get serious or deep or to the point when your both busy.
Walking, dancing and my next habit will be yoga. I’ve done it in the past and really want to focus on the strengthening abilities of the practice. Habits take time to form however so I’m aware I need to get my routine in place. I want time to continue my writing and do all the other things I love so a schedule is going to be key.
So far this week I’ve been on plan and done all my body magic. This afternoon we are attending a birthday BBQ and because it’s my first week I’m even planning to stay on plan there. Before I’d have counted it as a cheat meal. But I really want to see a difference on the scales on Monday morning.
Long may my motivation stay!
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