HER-TOO

It got her-too. Not totally got, but got enough, and I was a child and didn’t know and wasn’t shown but it was enough to know that it shouldn’t be seen and shouldn’t be shown because it shouldn’t be got in the first place.

mom’s in bed mom’s in the car coming home from treatment mom’s tired mom’s spitting up into a plastic bag with a ring around the top —

We saw it get her. And maybe my brother and sister remember more than I do or maybe we were covered by the same shield but it hits me harder the older I get that it could have really got her too and the chance of that was very high but I don’t like to think about it;

because if there was one person undeserving of that pain it was her but everyone says that about their loved ones but I don’t care because personal truths are deep and unshakable.

mom’s in bed mom’s in the car coming home from treatment mom’s tired mom’s spitting up into a plastic bag with a ring around the top —

People from church brought dinner and a weird dessert that is supposed to look like dirt and it has gummy worms in it and the pasta doesn’t taste like mom’s but mom’s in bed.

We saw the hair fall but only because we’re the ones who cut it.

— EE