I felt like I was reading from my own thoughts here…. this is exactly how i feel, or well felt, or feel or felt….. It comes and goes. Over the years I’ve tried to analyse the circumstances that lead to my occasional paranoia and basically Ive concluded that it’s all about where my mind is at. The less responsibility i have in a given moment the more I can enjoy it… but there is always some form of responsibility lurking, so weed has has become super recreational for me to use only when I have nothing to fear “potentially” going wrong. The crazy irony is, nothing ever seems to go very wrong when you’re high (or maybe more like nothing goes wrong because you’re hight). It’s a perception of lack of control that causes my paranoia, when actually im overcritical of any potential danger and therefore more safe hahaha. anyway, great read.
