Not the End
My ink stained hands quiver as I stand over your body
The taste on my tongue turns to acid at the sight of your needle marked arms
They unleashed themselves in you, the darkness lay thick in the air the day you were born
It said you're just like your mama, just like your papa, you'll never amount to anything.
See your mother, she made a mistake and they punished her greatly for it
She had failed them, hadn't she thought about what the church elders would say?
She gave you all she had but it wasn't nearly enough
So that morning just before you found her, she took a lot more than the inscription on the bottle suggested.
Her mother wouldn't let you in, you were the thing that had ruined her daughter's life
Your face was a daily reminder of her jewel's worst decision
You got in the way, they had had it all worked out
That's why when he found you, it didn't take much convincing to get you to leave.
He fed you hot ice until your soul depended on it
He told you reality was for the weak, giants built mansions in the clouds
Everyday with him was everything you'd never had and more
So you told yourself nothing was free, those scars were the price you had to pay.
The morning I found you, you were passed out on the sidewalk
The night before, you had almost choked on your screams
And for the first time you chose to choose yourself
He had become much more than you could afford.
You wouldn't let me in, the hurt had you boiling over
Then I showed you my dungeon, the hell that we all have
You said you'll come with me, maybe this time it'll finally make sense
I was writing my weekly letter to you when the call came through
I see the foam in your mouth and I say a silent prayer
If you exist, don't let this be her last day in this world they say you made.
As I touch your neck, I feel a faint throb and I thank him
This is not the end, you live to fight another day.