Doctors think autistics are trapped in the details. Doctors can’t see the big picture.

I’m in my 50s and only recently self-diagnosed as likely autistic.

I am long term a big picture person.

I get to understand the big picture by lots of flailing research, back and forth, mistakes, blunders, blurts and bang-ups.

I’m not a straight-line learner.

I can follow instructions very well…

My motto in life is "Think Crazy. Prove Yourself Wrong." Listening to the tape is a reality check and a chance to improve. "Ouch, yeah that sounded rude when I hear it back like that."

It's not about beating yourself up, it's about giving yourself a new challenge.

A long, long (long) time ago I did Toastmasters, a group dedicated to teaching public speaking in a safe environment for anyone from anxiety-ridden noob to someone with experience speaking who just wants constructive feedback (like the tape) to get over a hurdle.

After recently being confirmed autistic, I started recommending Toastmasters to other autistics as a structured safe place to learn how to present ourselves with confidence. (And avoid the aspie-blurts that I'm famous for.)

Whether a comedian or a worker at a cash register, it's good to be able to deal confidently and communicate with other people.

As a depression survivor, I have been watching ketamine closely and trying not to drool at the possibility that it might actually work.

I'm currently happily and stably medicated. I'd say "my depression isn't cured, it's in remission."

Someday, my depression may tell my meds to "fug off!" And then…

Dean Waters

Depression survivor. Assessed Autistic. Science lover. Parent of a herd of kids.

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