Your words resonated with me. I feel almost the exact same way toward my mother as you do. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your heart here. It prompted me to text my mom and tell her I love her. We don’t text or talk very often and I’m long past expecting a response, but when she does respond back it’s usually like this: (photo below)
But after some counseling and a starting a family of my own, I no longer feel anger towards her. More like sadness.
Very well written essay! Thank you.