I go to church but nothing looks definite anymore. I want to believe in the Bible-god but there are just too many contradictions in faith. Why should God want some people to burn in hell-fire eternally? I still feel there is a world beyond the physical. I have thoughts like , ‘where did the first particle come from?’. What would have been the nature of nothingness? When was the beginning of time and existence? I am finally coming to the conclusion that consciousness indeed may be a burden.