I Had To Say Something
I couldn’t believe the online articles and videos of Christina’s tragic death at her show in Orlando, Florida when I first came across them this afternoon. This incident has blindsided me because I do feel a deep connection to this young woman who was living her dreams; not because I’m also human too. I had to say something in a manner nobody else would immediately think of, so I wrote this poem for Christina Grimmie and her family, her friend Tiffany Alvord, and her loyal fans.I’ve been a fan for less than one year
I’ve been a fan for less than one year
The comfort of her pop music in my ears
Now I’m told the selfless young woman is deceased
Such tragedy like none before for me
I usually feel disconnected when events like this occur
Someone I never knew personally or indirectly
Someone who never influenced positivity in my life
Her lyrics empowered everyone to promote change
To make this world dominated by evil a far better place
This incident has struck home for me
I cannot believe there’s a reason for everything
Why did this young woman whose music I loved must be killed?
What physical or thought crimes did she commit?
Maybe there is a reason for why such creative beauty was prematurely ended
Even if somebody within the billions that resoundingly disagree believes it was a righteous one
Musicians like Christina always breathed love and devotion
Always outpouring to those in need of a helping hand
I noticed her recent campaign to help animals needing homes
This proves how passionate she was as an individual
Her unfortunately short legacy should never be forgotten
I must transition my attention to the currently anonymous murderer
What crime was committed by Christina?
I have found no empirical evidence to prove such accusations
What went wrong inside your mind whoever you are?
I realize life can be more difficult than veteran level in video games
What made you snap inside to seek attention through 15 minutes of fame?
The questions about this immoral character have abounded inside my head
Had a former best friend betrayed you?
Did your boyfriend/girlfriend dump you without a precise explanation?
Did you fail an important course in high school or college?
Did you lose the source of income that kept you off the streets?
Unfortunately, the world will never know
More importantly, why hadn’t we noticed this individual was gasping to be heard?
To release the tensions of a tormented mind that felt abandoned
There’s a gift card on my desk still unclaimed
I entered the code and bought Christina’s album
‘With Love’ with a double meaning
One to financially support her heartbroken family
Two because that’s the title of this musical masterpiece
How bittersweet that’s what it took to decide
Whose album to purchase with the gift card on my desk
I might be a nobody compared to Christina
The contestant on a nationally televised show
An artist that’s toured the world
While I’m struggling to promote myself online
Though I’ve written one published novel
With five more books on the way
As part of my poetry series under development
This one’s for you Christina
All because someone like you through your lyrics
Inspired someone like myself to keep moving forward
No matter how difficult this life as a writer becomes
At least I have individuals like yourself to inspire everyone
I wish this wasn’t a goodbye poem
Sincerely, Joel Hovell
A Christina Grimmie Fan
Originally published at www.joelhovell.com.