Walk in Circle
If only every human was born with a companion, probably in the shape of an angel or other spiritual being, that is able to converse with human daily, and be with them 24/7, and erase all loneliness and dysfunctionality, my life could have been much better.Having other human as companionship is extremely hard, especially when you’re yourself cracking, that you could barely help yourself to stand up. At such times, you just need to cry and wait for the other’s hand to lift you up, but instead of getting what you need, you have to depend on yourself to make things work. Because everyone around you has their own plate to finish with, and it’s selfish to depend on anyone other than yourself.
Seeing so many people in hardships, it makes you worse. You should have been something supporting, but, you’re acting against yourself. How could you cheer the other up, when you can barely make yourself functioning? That’s why people should depend with an unimaginable entity, The One that could not have any problem, and able to listen and solve everything.
There’s no point I’m going to make in this post. I’m just currently in a very bad place, which leads me to write this post in the first place. Time is ticking and unlike every bad episodes I have before, I couldn’t take day offs to do nothing and ‘heal’ myself. This time, I really have to make myself work. These past two-three days have been my worst, and I don’t know how I could make tomorrow work.
So, well, people screw up. This has been a hard year. I will make no conclusion, I just want to walk in circle and whine.
