I honestly am trying to wrap my mind about the concept. I get that you are deeply intimate with these men and they with you, but then in some ways you are clearly not divulging much about yourself. You clearly dont disclose where you live for one.

My therapist knows more about me than my wife, and possibly myself. I just dont have physical or virtual sex with my therapist. Yeah my therapist cares about me too but it is definitely rooted in a professional level. She wouldnt be seeing me if I didnt have money to pay her after all.

I guess it just seems to me like you are more of a virtual therapist virtual sex partner. I apologize if that offends.