Dutch Steak
Nov 2 · 1 min read

I like this. Currently I’m all hidden away with no energy at all I think because I became delusional in my other flat so I feel like I have an excuse to lie about, but I like what you said about making change. I think a lot of people want to make change even if they dont know how and have wanted change for years, like me.

You know. The making of the bed seems like a good one. I have never made my bed. Not unless I thought someone might see it on a flat inspection or whatever, but maybe that’s a good idea. I could start making my bed. Sounds like a good title for a post too.

I dont think I’ve put enough thought into symbolism. It’s almost easier to do that as a child because as a child you can get good at things just because they feel right. As you get older, nerves set in. In my case as soon as I was around 12.

I think it’s time to embrace symbolism and to get younger.

The science stuff. Science makes sense because it’s science but it only makes sense if you’re awake. Sometimes all I can do is sleep. If I thought forcing myself half asleep to do something I’d do it, though I have tried. I gave up because I always felt worse. Probably worth pushing. I’m too young to be this old but I dont want to stay old.

Thank you.

Hope it’s sunny where you are.

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