A Short Story by E.B. Peters
I was lost. Truly lost in this never-ending adventure called life. I was scared and indecisive and followed anyone’s advice. I got into plenty of trouble as I was never doing anything on my own determinism. Always someone else’s way. I rarely predicted the consequences of my actions and when I did I was way off. When things went badly, which they did often, I blamed the advice I took and the people who gave it. In others words, I became a victim.
My name is Susan Seward and I obviously lived to tell my story.
Having been lost resulted in finding my way. Like finding light while being in the dark or getting warm after being cold or finding love after hate. I don’t regret a single moment of it. I know the pleasure of finding my way after experiencing the pain of being lost. One could not happen without the other.
So what was the road map from confusion to order, pain to pleasure and chaos to peace you may ask. My answer is: Allegiance.
Not allegiance to everyone else which is exactly how I got lost. Oh no! Allegiance to myself, first and foremost. Day by day, I focused on staying loyal to what I perceived to be true in life. Even when it didn’t agree with others. Even when others didn’t like my loyalty to my own determinism. That is how I sprung myself from the trap of being a lost victim.
I know who I am. I know where I have been. I know where I am going. I am the source point of my life. I observe, decide and act from my own determinism. I blame no one for the consequences of my decisions and actions. They are mine and mine alone. However my life is perceived by others — good, bad or indifferent — I am happy as I am the captain of my fate.
©2022 E.B. Peters