I don’t know what it is, but I know that it is not fear

I’ve been through this a lot of times before

I know how fear looks like

Fear is merciless, it may crush your heart before you realize that it is there

Even before you feel it you are already doomed

I know how fear looks like and it is not fear

I see it growing, I feel it growing more and more every day

Sometimes fear grows but in those times you can feel it in your guts

Almost all the times it borns in its full form

This is a feeling too and it is not fear

It is weird because it makes me feel good (believe me, it is not an easy thing to happen)

As soon as I wake up in the morning it makes me feel a warm spreading in my chest to my whole body

Fear don’t do it and sometimes it will make you stay in your bed hoping that the nightmares stop, but the nightmare is your life, you know that there is no way to wake up from

I see it growing and it is like a great tree, not a bonsai

One day I hope to look at it from bottom to top

Maybe and only maybe I will call it love