My heart broke multiple times today.

Elizabeth
Elizabeth
Jul 25, 2017 · 1 min read

It’s amazing that something so shattered can splinter into even smaller pieces.

Honestly, I thought my heart was numb after so many years of sorrow. But then I tripped over a jagged piece of emotion that left me bleeding in a way I didn’t think was possible anymore.

I was explaining to my parents about the “new” custody agreement and how I was at the same time horrified and humiliated by it.

And I started to cry.

I had been numb for months and yet there at that small round kitchen table, I started crying full gut wrenching sobs and I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t stop for hours.


It’s ups and downs.

I spend a little “authorized” time with my kids, they speak freely for a minute, and I get hopeful.

And then there are days like today, where I can’t get a response from anyone, not even to the most basic questions, like “when will you be back in the state?” and I get hopeless.

It hurts.

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