i have no idea how i found this post or managed to get to your profile on this website- i’ve never even heard of medium.com
but i really want you to know-- immediately after reading your post, i opened a new tab and made an account (for the sole purpose of pressing the ‘like’ button)
this transcript of your internal darkness (that i, too, share)- is hauntingly beautiful. you’re able to translate the ‘irritation’ realists face when realism co-occurs with depression. identifying that black soul-sucker forever-looming over your existence — feelings of emptiness and lifelessness that are unfortunately met with the ability to identify cause; which only brings the second depressive wave of knowing the causes are out of your control.
i look forward to more