So much of what you said resonates with me. I want to stop taking my antidepressants, but it’s just so damn scary. I want to feel more of the happiness I used to feel, but I don’t want the sadness. What a horrible choice to have to make! I used to think I’d be better off if I was stupid because I spend too much time thinking, and I could focus instead on being. I’ve heard that true happiness can be found in living in the present, in just being. Maybe one day I will experience that and then I won’t be afraid of giving up the security of the meds.