Spectacles of Trust
Because they come in real handy when tomorrow seems clouded..

So this morning I opened my Bible with a bit of a heavy heart. It was as though I didn’t have the strength to read from it. Or rather, I just didn’t feel like it.
Why? Oh I’ll tell you.
I had been waiting on a job for a while now and was very sure that God would let me have it. I constantly prayed about it, reminding myself that it was worth the wait. I was very excited about the whole process of waiting as long as I knew that it was positive and landed me at the organization I so badly wanted to be a part of. I was very confident about it as the organization expressed the will to take me in. So I did not worry at all. But that’s the thing. I was confident and positive only as long as I knew that it would all work out. Or so I thought.
Yesterday, I got a call with news that kicked a funny feeling in my stomach — disappointment. It was as though my hopes had dashed, and all of the waiting was in vain. I wasn’t mad at the organization as it did have a genuine reason for not being able recruit me at the moment. I was mad at myself for being overconfident about getting the job and being so blinded by it. Maybe I got carried away with happy thoughts of working there.
Or maybe, I was mad at God. How could He let this happen? Wasn’t this the job of promise for me? Wasn’t it all working out just fine, till I got the call yesterday? “It’s been taken away from me and there goes all the waiting down the drain”, I said to myself in the heat of all these thoughts.
I may have gathered the strength to open my Bible today, but reading from it to recharge my trust in God seemed like an impossible task for the day. However, what caught my eye was exactly what I needed (isn’t it amazing how God has His wonderful little ways of reminding us that He is always in control?) —
“So Abraham named that place The Lord Will Provide. To this day people say, “It will be provided on the mountain of the Lord.” Genesis 22:14
How did Abraham have the faith in God to sacrifice his son, Issac, in obedience and worship? Issac was the son of promise who had come to Abraham and Sarah in their old age. He was the fulfillment of God’s call to Abraham that he would be the father of nations. Then how did Abraham have that amazing trust in God that he took Issac to the mountain to sacrifice him?!
It baffled me.
We know that God rewarded Abraham’s faith and courageous obedience by sparing the sacrifice of Issac’s life and providing a ram. He blessed Abraham and being the faithful God that He is, fulfilled His promise to Abraham.
This got me thinking, and helped me realize what God was doing.
We sometimes cling to fear for the provision of our resources. We look at all that we have and see a finite supply — money, belongings, food, etc. But all that we need is supplied by knowing and trusting the Yahweh-Jireh, the God Who Provides.
He lavishes unlimited resources on us and is always renewing what we have — particularly when we are willing to give it away.
God desires to provide everything we need to live victoriously. And often that requires preparation of our hearts, which is done while we wait in trust. And sometimes, only when we learn to let go with complete trust in God, like Abraham did, we see God’s divine promises and blessings come to pass in our lives.
Holding on to that hope, I believe that my wait wasn’t and isn’t in vain. God is my Provider and I rest assured that by placing my complete trust in Him, I will soon see my triumph unfold. He is simply preparing me for the best, which is yet to come.
My disappointment has now turned into anticipation.
Good news is coming.
