Apr 17How Coming Out to Myself as Non-Binary Affected the Way I See People.Though I’ve proudly proclaimed myself as queer for a few years, it’s taken me a long time to unpack my gender, confront my denial, and challenge internalized transphobia. I didn’t understand how expression of one’s gender doesn’t automatically equate to a certain gender. Accepting and embracing myself as non-binary has…LGBTQ5 min read
Apr 9Birthday Cake, Triggers, and the Morning After.Content warning for talk of eating disorders. It wasn’t even my birthday yesterday, and I got triggered. Part of my journey in trying to challenge my eating disorder is addressing the triggers. …Eating Disorders3 min read
Mar 20Trying Not To Feel Alone and Awkward in Social Transitioning.I’ve now worked a handful of shifts at my new, but familiar, job. The company is a lot more diverse and inclusive than when I worked there a decade ago, and to tell you the truth, whether it’s full commitment or pandering, seeing little signs with rainbow flags does make…LGBTQ7 min read
Mar 18The Little Ways I’m Challenging My Eating Disorder.content warning for talk of an eating disorder: no numbers mentioned though. I’m making a conscious effort to acknowledge and challenge any disordered thoughts surrounding food. Being back at a work, at a retail job no less, I’m double-checking to make sure I have snacks to fuel me and that…Mental Health3 min read
Mar 16I’m Alive, Even When My Body and Mind Convince Me I’m Not.You know those days when you feel unbearably gross? Not necessarily on the outside — my skin wasn’t sweaty or dirty, rather, plagued with hopelessness. Dead inside is a perhaps more accurate phrase. This morning, I lazily watched birds dip their heads and say hello out the front window. I…LGBTQ3 min read
Mar 9Wearing a Binder for the First Time in Public — New Beginnings.I feel like weeks have passed since yesterday’s post. It’s strange and a bit disconcerting when your life is stagnant for months, when you feel like sinking into the ground, and then everything happens in one day. I was offered the job as a sales associate on-the-spot at the interview…LGBTQ4 min read
Mar 8The Awkwardness of a Name Change While Job Hunting.I received a call early this morning, earlier than my usual 10:30 alarm that guarantees I’ll roll out of bed near noon (but hey, I’m working on it). Trying my best not to sound too groggy, and forcing my voice out of its husky tone, I answered. …LGBTQ5 min read
Mar 7You’re Not Alone in This Storm.I know everything hurts right now — life and the voices that tell you you’re not trying hard enough, but I know you’ve been giving it your all. It’s okay to let up. It’s okay to rest. You can lay your head down here. You can trust me; I won’t hurt…Poetry2 min read
Mar 5The Double Standard and Racial Bias of Western Media — How We View War and Refugees.My father broke into tears earlier this week about Ukraine. He mentioned the efforts his church is putting together to offer support. For once, he didn’t place blame. I sat, stunned, because while he does care for other people, it’s never an unconditional kind of compassion. It’s always a they…War5 min read
Mar 4A Robin Made Me Think of You.I couldn’t keep my head up today — I was missing you on every road I drove on, a reminder of our country adventures, mud on your paws, a magenta bandana around your neck, as you smelled the fresh, spring air and barked at people gardening in their yards. We…Poetry2 min read
