A Crisis in twenties or how people (eventually) may freak out and recover after graduation…

4 months… running around…trying to find a relevant job…trying to apply to grad schools… trying to prove yourself worthy… most of students have experienced this fight or flight response at some point when their graduation was just around the corner…Unsure of their future, pretty much any student looks for ways to get things stable and comfortable as it was during their college days…be it a job with a decent salary or a degree to pursue their further education…you name it! Little did I know I would be faced with certain nerve-wracking decisions to be made and since my parents considered me a grown-up(the term that is still a little beyond my full comprehension), I chose to quit…Yes, you read that right!.. “Quitting” but not in a traditional sense…I defined “QUIT” as “quietly unlearning introspective tensions”…Alright! Alright! No more fancy make-ups but honestly I’ve tried to unwind for a certain period of time…believe me seeing others find a job, pursue education abroad or travel to rather exotic places did put a tiny smile on my face yet it also contributed to my fomo (fear of missing out-did not make that up, google it)…Going from one place to another around the country for some downtime did help a little bit yet it did not solve the problem entirely…So what I came around doing was

Here it comes,

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a little more down under……………………………………………………

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NOTHING!!!

Well, if you consider sitting in a chair like a monk for 3 hours a day and 15 days in a row breathing in and out…that would contain the word “nothing”

Did I notice any considerably instant changes?! F*** no! You kidding me!?

What did change however was my perspective on how people and things around me slowed down and became sort of less exacerbating and I started noticing it on the 10th day of this experiment…

I’ve researched about whether I could go on for days and see any big changes and surprisingly enough I found out about this channel on youtube…the guy went for 100 days and felt considerably fulfilled at the end…

Today I’ve completed 18th day and I feel things are getting a little better…it is relatively hard for me, to say the least, to get depressive about what’s to come by for the day…

So should you go on for hours, days and months doing “hmmmmmmmm” like a buddhist monk while breathing in and out?!… Surely, you are not forced to…But it does help to recuperate one’s mental state to take on what’s to come especially for 2o somethings…

Sincerely,

The resilient grad like yourself…