thank you for sharing your story. I am in awe of not only you but your siter as well. I too am an older sister…I too emigrated to this country but not in circumstances nearly as horrific as your won. I too have my mothers hands and I too wonder why I do many of the things I do. your sister is an incredibly strong woman. It takes more courage sometimes to grow numb and survive than it does to feel. Many blessing to you and your sister.