Why I enjoy being alone most of my time

I’m not antisocial. I like socializing with people once in a while, I enjoy meeting new people and connecting with them, most of all I’m not unsociable, unfriendly, uncommunicative, reclusive, and withdrawn nor avoidant. But “not wanting the company of others”-that’s me. First let me give you a gist of what I think about the definition to the word Antisocial; “not wanting the company of others”. I get sick to my stomach seeing the same people every day, this includes the people in my house hold, my friends, co-workers, most of all family. Everything about them starts to annoy me, little by little their presence starts to irritate me. Why? Because having all these people in my life, means most of them wanting to control it, Start to overtake my life and redirect my decisions with their opinions, and criticism, and for the most part it’s not all that bad, especially when these people one way or another enrich my life. But when I can’t have one moment to myself to think, to reinvent myself, to read, to write, to be alone in silence, may it be to just take a shit in peace without having someone at the door, that’s when “not wanting the company of others or antisocial” applies.