Broken Bones, Broken Resolutions

Well here we are, 13 days into 2017 and I have already broken my New Year’s Resolution. Perhaps I shouldn’t be surprised…

This year I resolved to make “Not Wasting” my resolution. My interest in reducing food waste spurred this, but I decided to extend it to my daily life. I hoped to not waste time or energy on unimportant things. I resolved to put this time and energy to good use and to spend it wisely. I even wrote my first blog on Medium about my resolution.

Then I broke my foot and broke my resolution.

Everything takes longer and requires more energy. It is a trek to fill up my coffee. What usually takes 30 seconds-walking to the coffee maker, filling up and walking back to my desk, now takes many minutes and a bit of planning. It requires getting up carefully, adjusting the crutches, hobbling to the coffee maker, filling up, securing the lid, placing the coffee cup in a bag for easier carrying and then hobbling back while avoiding tripping over the dog.

While I may have broken my resolution, this experience has been a lesson in mindfulness and gratitude. Interestingly, my resolution last year was to improve my mindfulness practice by taking a mindful minute at noon every day and to write down three things I was grateful for each day.

My entire day is now mini mindful moments. I have to be mindful and aware of my foot while walking and standing as to not put too much pressure on it. I have to be mindful when walking on the crutches in the snow and ice. I have to be mindful and practice body scans to assess the pain in my foot.

My gratitude lists don’t stop at three per day. Here is the short version of things to be grateful for today (in no particular order): living in a first floor apartment, a helpful roommate, supportive family and friends, breaking it in the winter when it is too cold outside to run anyway, Whole Foods employees who become your personal shoppers, people who hold the door, the guy in the Target parking lot who picked up my fallen crutch, crutches, spin bikes and new work out options (and now feeling sore in different muscles) and it goes on and on.

But maybe I didn’t break my resolution. Perhaps I am not wasting time. Time is only wasted when ruminating about the past and worrying about the future. Being in the moment, being mindful and living life is not a waste of time. It’s all we have. We only have this moment. Right here and right now.

Maybe I am not wasting energy either. I mean the law of the conservation of energy even tells us that energy can neither be created nor destroyed, it merely transforms. So perhaps I am focusing my awareness and energy on the present moment in time and I am redirecting and transforming my mental energy on finding gratitude and learning new ways of doing things.

No matter how you look at it, it has been a valuable life lesson that I am grateful for.