You’re still so young and the world is yours…
For a long, long time I’ve had this idea in my head of how my life was going to be. Ever since I was a little girl I thought I was going to be on the All-A Honor Roll throughout school, graduate with tons of awards and scholarships under my belt, go to a great university, be something awesome like a doctor or a scientist, meet Mr. Right, get married, have babies, and live happily ever after. And then “The End”…well you know, nothing turned out that way. I made my first C (OH MY GOODNESS) in ninth grade, cried about it for days and begged my parents to pay a tutor $60 an hour; still ending up with a C average. I wasn’t in all of the clubs and organizations in high school because I literally had no time between studying and cheerleading. My nose was in a math book 98% of the time (in college too). My senior year, the IB class all wore their college t-shirts of the school they chose to go and I wore a silk blouse that was dark green with gold buttons on it…very cute top, but very embarrassing day for me! I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life like everyone else. I attended a technical college for 3 semesters where I changed my major quite frequently, studied NONSTOP, and still lost my scholarship because my GPA was 2.8 instead of a 3.0. Now, I’m stuck paying back the school for that. And I cried. A lot. It was the end of the world when I lost my scholarship. Or I thought so, at least.
I spent way too much time in high school and 3 semesters in college worrying. Not only about my grades but about the future and “what I want to be when I grow up,” and about making other people happy. I’ve lost my faith, I’ve lost friends, And I’ve cried…oh boy, have I cried. But I found my way back to the One True King. A quote that I really have come to love recently is, “You’re still so young and the whole world is yours.” There is so much truth to that statement. I’m two years out of high school and I’m serving food at a restaurant down town and IT’S OKAY. I know I will figure it out eventually. No, I don’t know what I’m gonna do yet…but on the flip side of that, I don’t even know what I’m gonna eat for dinner tonight.
I’m learning slowly, but surely, to not worry. I’m not saying just give up and make F’s and drop out. I’m saying don’t spend every day and night with your nose in a book trying to please other people. Live your life and have fun while you can…while also studying and doing your best. Prioritizing is the best thing you can do…make time for your school and also for living your life. Some days I still worry tremendously about what my future holds but luckily I have a God who is so much bigger than all my worries.
Don’t worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done.