Open Letter: Dear Forgiveness, Thank You for Being My Rock

Dear Forgiveness,

As of late, I have not written. My base emotions have wanted to rule the roost, therefore our correspondence was naturally placed on hold. The truth is, I’m sorry. I believed I couldn't face you and my hurt at the same time. But, I was wrong.

I am pleased to report that I am back on track, and this time for good. I know you are constantly pointing me in the correct direction, but those other roads tend to get me with their ease and justifications. Yes, I will admit, you were right about the tiny pebbles that remained in my shoes. I am sure you will be happy to know, they tormented me daily. As you predicted!

I know it is a little silly, but if it is okay, I will just outline the steps that I took and the results. I know results are the key to this process, but the steps help to remind me how I got here. Please bare with me.

Step 1: Pin point the pain causing friction in my thoughts (what is the ugly truth behind others and myself)

Step 2: Allow myself to feel the natural emotion with this pain (but give it a shelf life)

Step 3: Say the words to myself: I forgive__________ (the funny thing is at this step, I found it also useful to use on myself)

Step 4: Move on (world keeps spinning, the sun rises and falls, whether or not I was there to witness it)

Results. I have control of my thoughts now. The emotions that seemed like title waves of destruction are actually more like little ripples and totally doable, they come and go and I just let them. I have found that my judgments are less harsh about others as well as less harsh about myself. I see people as people, and problems as problems. Best of all, I am experiencing Joy in the simple things around me, even dirty laundry.

Thank you again for reminding me time and time again, I cannot control the world, but I can control myself. Thank you for giving me enough space to not be alright with people hurting me, and enough space to not be alright with hurting others myself. Thank you for giving me the peace I needed to wake up and be a present member of my own life today.

Forgiveness, thank you again, for keeping your promise to me. I cannot express how much it means to me to get my own heart back. Please keep in touch, and remember how much I need you. You are simply irreplaceable!

Forever Yours,

Emily

PS: I promise to never forget what brought me peace, Forgiveness.