Getting My Shit Together
As I continue living in Oslo, Norway this summer, I am keeping in contact with my American friends. We begin conversations by checking in with “hello, how are yous”, to which I respond,“Good, I’ve finally gotten my shit together.” For the past two years, my mind has been elsewhere. This has caused great difficulty in school, social life, and simply just getting things done. Once in a while, I had spurts of energy, which I invested in creating work for myself, pushing myself too hard on a jog, and contacting my friends around the world furiously. This is probably a result of both moving for the past two summers instead of having a break and emotional exhaustion.
This summer, I have concentrated on myself- self improvement. I feel as if I have organized my life. My clothes are folded, I wake up early, I get off my ass to throw something out, I look people in the eye, and etc.. I have hardly spoken a word of English since I arrived here in Norway, and thus my Norwegian has greatly improved. Shadowing at Chanel, attending Pratt, and working in Norway has given me clarity of my ambitions. (I found my perfect fit of a college, Parsons, which offers a marketing and art program that is offered in NYC and Paris.) I have made schedules for my summer reading and daily exercise routines, which I have religiously obeyed.
But Ultimately, coming home to Norway has cured me. It is the most consistent place in my life. My bed is the same, the roads are the same, the smells are the same, the woods are the same, and the grocery store is still at the bottom of the hill. It is where spiders do not cause me panic, my arms suddenly have strength, thorns and crabs are ticklish, my feet thicken, curiosity is most present, and I return to writing poetry. It is what makes me breathe easy, speak my mind, ask questions, and hold my head high. Here in the familiar city and nature, my body is mine, my actions are mine, and my voice is mine. With this, I will be able to embrace the next year of my reality in Brooklyn as a more confident, stronger person.