I’m Pretty Stubborn

I have quite the list of things that are physically different about me compared to most people, and an equally long list of devices that I am supposed to be using to make life easier on myself.

Do I use even 90% of said devices?

Fuck no. How dare you suggest such a thing? I don’t need those.

I know, it doesn’t make any sense to me either.

Allow me to make a little list here:

  1. I have permanent hearing loss and require hearing aids. I had said hearing aids until about a year ago, when I had them stored in a purse that I threw out without bothering to check for them. I also didn’t bother trying to replace them because I rarely wore them anyways. Don’t even think about whispering anything to me because I can’t fucking hear you. Especially if you’re female. I’m not just saying that to be sexist, I really can’t hear higher pitched voices.
  2. I have leg braces that would make my walking and balance much easier, but, well, I haven’t worn them in probably a year or so because they’re uncomfortable and I just haven’t gotten around to buying shoes that will fit over these monsters.
  3. My walker could do with a replacement, as it’s roughly 5 years old. I do use this to get to places, but when I am at said places, I refuse.

I swear I’m not that bad, I do wear my glasses everyday!

Anyway, I had a bit of an epiphany recently that I’ve probably been falling more frequently (or maybe I just notice it more), I really can’t hear anything, and life would just be easier if I made use of the resources I have been given.

So! What have I been up to lately?

I finally mustered up the courage to call my audiologist, admit that I’ve lost my hearing aids, and book an appointment for a checkup. She’s probably going to kill me. Or, you know, lecture me about taking care of my shit and actually wearing my aids, and all that good stuff. Say a prayer for me, please.

I’ve found out that I am eligible for a new walker this coming August, so have requested a referral to a therapist to assess all my wonderful walker needs.

I also finally called my optometrist back to have an eye checkup.

… I haven’t done much about my leg braces yet, because fuck them. But, I will, I swear.

Anyways, the moral of the story here is, I’m still a little stubborn, but I’m getting there. And there’s nothing wrong with needing a little help sometimes. I can still be kick ass with my hearing aids, walker, and leg braces, right?