I’m Pretty Stubborn
I have quite the list of things that are physically different about me compared to most people, and an equally long list of devices that I am supposed to be using to make life easier on myself.
Do I use even 90% of said devices?
Fuck no. How dare you suggest such a thing? I don’t need those.
I know, it doesn’t make any sense to me either.
Allow me to make a little list here:
- I have permanent hearing loss and require hearing aids. I had said hearing aids until about a year ago, when I had them stored in a purse that I threw out without bothering to check for them. I also didn’t bother trying to replace them because I rarely wore them anyways. Don’t even think about whispering anything to me because I can’t fucking hear you. Especially if you’re female. I’m not just saying that to be sexist, I really can’t hear higher pitched voices.
- I have leg braces that would make my walking and balance much easier, but, well, I haven’t worn them in probably a year or so because they’re uncomfortable and I just haven’t gotten around to buying shoes that will fit over these monsters.
- My walker could do with a replacement, as it’s roughly 5 years old. I do use this to get to places, but when I am at said places, I refuse.
I swear I’m not that bad, I do wear my glasses everyday!
Anyway, I had a bit of an epiphany recently that I’ve probably been falling more frequently (or maybe I just notice it more), I really can’t hear anything, and life would just be easier if I made use of the resources I have been given.
So! What have I been up to lately?
I finally mustered up the courage to call my audiologist, admit that I’ve lost my hearing aids, and book an appointment for a checkup. She’s probably going to kill me. Or, you know, lecture me about taking care of my shit and actually wearing my aids, and all that good stuff. Say a prayer for me, please.
I’ve found out that I am eligible for a new walker this coming August, so have requested a referral to a therapist to assess all my wonderful walker needs.
I also finally called my optometrist back to have an eye checkup.
… I haven’t done much about my leg braces yet, because fuck them. But, I will, I swear.
Anyways, the moral of the story here is, I’m still a little stubborn, but I’m getting there. And there’s nothing wrong with needing a little help sometimes. I can still be kick ass with my hearing aids, walker, and leg braces, right?