PinnedRebirth by the RiverI am sitting in the pitch dark and moist room in the middle of the jungle while the plant kingdom, led by their queen — Ayahuasca — slowly but surely starts taking me over. They all work together, they are strong and they are allies to the shaman who is…Ayahuasca7 min readAyahuasca7 min read
Mar 10, 2022Traditional Shamanic Dieta in PeruThe clouds above the mountain outside my window are passing slowly and gently as the morning sun rising behind this massive and monumental formation kisses the highest peaks. …Ayahuasca6 min readAyahuasca6 min read
Mar 9, 2022In The Pits of Hell in UkraineThe imagery and the insanity of war came to me not only on YouTube but also on the screen of my inner eye in the not so distant past. “No, thank you, I’ve been in wars in other past lives, they are horrible, been there, done that.” — I told…Guernica8 min readGuernica8 min read
Feb 25, 2022Grandma, stop the War in Ukrain!I have been sobbing intermittently since yesterday morning. I am pissed! I am outraged! I am in shock! I would not have thought Putin would really invade Ukraine! I thought we did not live in the Middle Ages any more and wars were not fought by weapons. But oh no…Ukrain6 min readUkrain6 min read
Feb 22, 2022The Four Altars Ceremony in PeruThe Four Altars Ceremony in Peru All the experiences I have had in the first ten days of my stay in the Sacred Valley of Peru — including the Festival of Medicine Music — were nothing relatively to what followed later: The Four Altars Ceremony with Alonso Del Rio. …Huachuma6 min readHuachuma6 min read
Feb 7, 2022SacredHere’s all the pain I’ve ever felt It’s sacred Here’s all my mistakes crucified on a cross They are sacred Here’s all the time I have sacrificed It is sacred Here’s all the ways I have wronged you They are sacred Here’s the Grandmother Medicine She is sacred Here’s the…Sacred1 min readSacred1 min read
Feb 7, 2022Gathering for GoodThere’s a gathering I have been going to every summer for the last 12 years. Being a person of very few habits and not much consistency in the realm of the material world, one would ask “what makes her go to this gathering every year?” I did miss one gathering…Gathering6 min readGathering6 min read
Feb 7, 2022Terrapin StationThis music is slowly but surely growing on me…balancing on the slanted slope of the Shoreline Theater south of San Francisco, I am watching a family of birds who made their nest in a sheltered corner on the pole holding the huge amplifiers — what on Earth could they be…Grateful Dead9 min readGrateful Dead9 min read
Feb 5, 2022Mom is Playing Piano!My heart and ears were melting from the infinite joy I felt when my mother presented me with a piano -performance over the phone. Even though her timing was completely off, I could still hear the melody she was trying to capture on her new electric piano. All the notes…Alzheimers Disease9 min readAlzheimers Disease9 min read
Dec 31, 2021Family Visits and Other Dimensional Hopping GamesPsychelic journeys, meditations and out-of-body states are all interesting and educational, but there’s nothing like going back to my home-town in Hungary for 3 weeks when it comes to experiencing dimensional shifts. Being a California-transplant and pampered by a life of freedom in the West for the last 22 years…Dimensions12 min readDimensions12 min read