manifesto for the reborn

this is the day when i back myself

when i give back to myself

when i bestow the compassion that i have been seeking from others

on my own wanting flesh and aching bones.

today i take down my high fences and replace them with boundaries and

survey the terrain of this heart of mine and see that it is good.

the day i fit my own mask before i fit the mask of others around me.

the day i draw a line in the sand and say this is who i am, and i am

wild and fierce but i am

kind.

this is the day that i will go out on a limb and expect the universe to meet me half way,

acknowledging that what i put out is exactly what i get in return

and that if the devil turned up on my doorstep it is because i summoned him there,

and that yes my addiction to self deprecation and atonement are often the same thing and that

yes i may have followed him into hell and done deals unholy,

but i walked back out again with my head held high

and that carries both weight

and worth.

this is the day that i will pledge to write my way through

but not at the expense of my sanity and

whilst i will not contribute to the noise i will make a promise to speak mindfully.

today i bow before synchronicity and simplicity.

small moves and simpler words.

i surrender to possibility.

with the knowledge that our memories do not make us.

and that sometimes we cannot reconcile with our choices

but still i tear the pages out of my book, black and heavy with ink and tearstains

and i offer unto myself my own redemption, knowing that

i cannot save the devil, but i can save

myself

this is the day i raise a glass to all that has gone before

as i take my rightful place in a new world.

and while the road may be long and fraught with danger,

every step i take is a choice.

i have a choice.

and i am stronger than i give myself credit for.

i am alive

and my time starts

now.

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