What a fool…

I can not believe I took the time to believe in you again… but not only that, but to convince my case managers to believe in me for believing in you as they looked in my eyes… Took them a few days to think on it and give you the benefit of their doubt… and now here I am being the fool again… as now what do I say to them? He don’t want us no more as a family…? Or do I tell them I don’t make good decisions when I believe in you? Am I the only one who ever believed in you? I mean I think I have believed in you more than you have believed in you.. But who are you? I don’t know you anymore… You have my body, mind and soul twirling inside this deep, dark hell now and I can do nothing but cry and thank God for answering the prayer I prayed today…