Friday, January 01, 2016…I like how these numbers look!

For some reason, the visual energy I get from those numbers & letters is good and positive. (I mean, the year started on a Friday…what can go wrong, right?!) I have high hopes for this new year. I know things are gonna happen. They have to. There’s no other option.

2015 was a year of change, transitions, many endings and many beginnings. And many beginnings that also ended! My life took a totally unexpected turn, starting the year, and then all of a sudden, I was riding on a roller coaster that took me to great heights and very low depths. I was all over the place this past year! Pretty busy re-inventing myself…again.

I got a divorce, left Madrid, moved back home after 5 years of living in another continent and had a tough time doing it, too. Everything was hard. I felt I didn’t fit in, I felt frustrated with everything, from the people, to the way they think and do things, to the insanely unbearable humidity and heat, to the culture… A culture I know very well ‘cause it’s part of me too, but somehow I have changed in life and I no longer see things as I used to. 
It was hard to come back and realize everything here is just as I had left it 5 or even 7 years ago.

It sounds good in a way, or convinient to say the least, ‘cause I didn’t miss out on much. But it’s really frustrating to see that things just don’t move forward here. I mean, they do in a way, but they kinda just roll with time…they don’t actively move forward! But hey, that’s just how it is down here. And I’ve learned to embrace it, and even love it again — although I have periodic bumping-head-against-wall spells when I’m trying to makes things happen and they just don’t… ’cause things just roll differently here…such is life in the tropics!

So Life brought me here, again…I must be back for a reason. There are many good things about this place, and a lot of people I love here. There are things I thoroughly enjoy and that you can’t find anywhere else. It’s ok to be back home.

But the journey has been difficult. Lots of things going on.

It’s also been a year of cleaning, so to speak. I got over a very difficult and turbulent relationship; I had to face myself and grow in a very hard but rewarding way; life directed me towards a genius doctor that has healed me (cured my ulcerative colitis with a very top notch stem cell treatment that isn’t performed in the US for political reasons…I’m not even gonna get into that subject! But you all could be saving so many lives up there! Just saying!). I’m getting stronger and I could say healthier, but I do have to work on that: my nutrition and getting healthier.

I started singing again and that has made me so happy! It all started on my birthday, and it has just been snowballing! Apparently I’m really good and getting even better at it, and people all over the place enjoy it and want more. I’m prospering again as a VO artist (you know, those voices you hear on commercials, documentaries, instructional videos, phone systems, etc.) and gaining new clients…big ones, too! Doing a lot of work for LATAM. Making a lot of money, although I don’t see a penny…I’ll get paid someday… life as a free-lancer! (anyone?)

I’ve had some adventures too…met a lot of people, some that came to help me out in this phase of my life to get started with things, but some that I’ve also had to let go of because they are a bit negative, draining and/or toxic for me.

Lots of emotional ups and downs, moments when I thought I wouldn’t survive another heart break, another month without cashflow, nor another painful night after a very delicate medical procedure.

But I did… I survived… all of it! And here I am, ready to face 2016.

I guess I can sum up 2015 as a year of survival…survival and growth…also, of planting seeds, which I hope to harvest soon!

Now, 2016, I have great expectations for you! Although I don’t really like that word. I don’t believe in expectations. They never really do any good, and just get you all worked up for something that will happen in the exact opposite way and will leave you drained and unhappy.

Let’s rephrase: I have great hopes for this coming year! I believe it is time to make things happen. Welcome, 2016…let’s do this!