I did not mean this space to be a navel-gazing self-blog. I had that. I thought I was over it. And reading that of others is of no help either. There is a lot of courage, but somehow I feel this is just the lack of a strong enough social net to hold us. I am certainly lacking that.
When I was 18, I was a really troubled kid, with bulimia and whatnot. I fell really hard for a very good looking, 25 years old guy who worked as a receptionist in the office building next to my high school. I sometimes went over after school to see him. We had some interesting…
Never start a relationship with someone you are sorry for. When will I learn this?
Of course, it’s the easy way to dominance. But it should not be about dominance. That’s what I was preaching every day. As long as I had a follower sheepishly nodding to everything I said. How sick is that.